The first year of university ends. Philosophy degree starts.

So, tomorrow I'm moving out of my flat in the halls of residence, never to return to this room. That marks that I'll be home for four months over the summer to move into my new house for next year.

The major difference between first year (which I've passed with a 2:1) and second year, is that second and third years actually count towards your degree. Which is why I'm glad I've made the decision now that I want to take more Philosophy and drop more psychology.

It seems that my old first love of psychology slowly was pushed out and my new first love of philosophy slowly grows larger. I changed from single honours psychology to single honours philosophy in no less than a year and a half. Including taking joint honours in both and even major-minor in Philos/Psych.

This isn't such a bad thing though, as my interest in getting a career in psychology no longer seems existent. It seems the more philosophy I do, the more I dislike paradigm based science, and psychology is incorrectly trying to be a paradigm based science. So basically, learning psychology academically is absolutely crap - which explains why most psychologists are morons and only learn by the book.

Instead, I'll continue to learn psychology on a personal level and apply it how I wish. Because Philosophy is actually more useful in understanding people and thoughts and ways of life, psychology just teaches you to notice things and treat them objectively, and manipulate them.

Anyway, in a nutshell - that's my academics. First year is over, now the important stuff starts. Though it's not stopping me trying to do all the things I still want to do, such as my Youtube channel or writing new stuff.

Also, anyone who thinks philosophy is dead or useless. You are a fool.

I hate it when things come to an end.

This post is going to be a little raw. But that's kind of what I want - I'll write it once without re-reading and post how it is, literally my uncut and sporadic thoughts.

One thing I never wanted, was for this blog to turn into a blog where I constantly apologise for not updating regularly enough. So in thought of remedying that, I'm starting to list themes and things to write about and post on here more regularly. I'll be posting thoughts and things about life - but there wont be many stories at the moment due to my current aims in life. Also, I'd like to be more honest alongside the comical rants.

Speaking of which, I want to share something a little more honest on here now. It might sound sad and stuff, but so be it, I understand and that's what counts. The thing is, I have just finished watching the last ever episode of House and was genuinely sad afterwards, in the knowledge that it wont be made anymore.

Now, people can say what they like about the show - hate it or love it or never really watched it. But I enjoyed the show, and I especially enjoyed the character House. I will have to also admitting to wishing myself more like the character (harsh as he is - he's brilliant). But that's not it, ranting about people wishing they were a more interesting character in a more eventful programme is another blog post elsewhere.

What upset me, is that for my age and point in life it made me realise how I hate things coming to an end. With the end of something that lasted so long and was so epic, it followed all the little things that I realise have gone. I only ever seem to realise this in small medias - such as when I complete a Final Fantasy game and get upset because I don't want the game to end.

When this happens, it's not the game you're worried about, it's just that it's more obvious that the adventure you were on is now over and it's something you don't really notice as much in life when it does happen.

I know this post might seem a little bit pointless to some people, or just stating the obvious, but fact is that it's rare that I stop to notice my own weaknesses. And as much as goodbyes don't bother me and as much as I prefer change to things staying the same - some things, I just don't want to end.

But with the sadness of things that have ended, it accompanies the fear of things that will come to an end. And I've realised how much more that will happen to me from now on. More things are going to start and random opportunities to take, but that leaves many more doors to be closed. So, you see, it's not that House has finished, it's what it represents kind of makes me feel a little vulnerable.

So to end on a nice note. A silent thank you to all the nameless people who have shaped my growing up. I wish everyone who actually read this post to the end many happy memories and situations you don't take for granted. Thanks.

Update!

  So, yeah. I haven't posted for a while, so I thought I'd put up an update with all 'comming soon' things.

  First things first, the reason I haven't posted for a while is because life has been pretty hectic with things happening left right a centre. Computer breaking, life issues and currently in an exam period, to name a few things.
  Because of this, I've set the entire summer aside to catch up with my personal projects. I'll start all of this around the end of may / beginning of June, so watch this space!

  In order to make up for lost time, my summer is going to be filled activity. I intend to be gaming a little bit, just for something fun to do, but when I am not doing that or working, I'll be posting little bits on here. I'll be reviewing lots of writing and working my way through books. I'll also be trying to write 1000 words every day - so there will be some new stuff coming soon.

  Some of the things I have to write include Dragons, Mermaids and unique quirky characters. I have a new style of editing to try out as well. So 2012 might be a good year to get a writing portfolio to show off.

  On top of this, I'm going to be working on my Youtube channel and writing sketches and vlogs. I'll mostly be using it for comedy, but there will be lots of ideas flowing about. I should be getting a new camera, so will be writing, directing and acting for Youtube in the not so distant future. So, I'll be posting more about that too.
  The idea before about the podcast is also still going to happen over the summer, and will likely be added onto Youtube and iTunes for free download. We are going to try and make it as interesting as possible, so do watch out for that.

  After all my work flowing around on the Internet, I'll be sure to have something to prove myself as a creative writer, so towards the end of the year I'll be e-mailing people to see if I can do freelance writing work or offering writing commissions (if that's what it's called) in order to hopefully gain some money.
  On this note, if anyone wants anything - poetry, short story, thought prose, comedy sketch or editing / reviewing of your work, don't hesitate to contact me. Depending on the workload, I'll likely do it for free at this point.

  So there we have it. I am still alive and my plans are still as elaborate and ambitious as ever. My exams finish around mid-may, then there'll be some time for me to sort my life out. So fingers cross I'll be neck deep in work before I know it.

  Thanks to anyone who actually reads my blog or likes my work, sorry for neglecting you. Ta ta for now!

P.S. Game of Thrones is awesome... watch that.