I have to ask myself with these introspections, why am I doing it? What is the idea behind mapping out my individual viewpoints, and when I put them together, will it really form a basis for my world view? I concluded, however, that most of the reasons why I am doing it are purely for myself - so I have a record of my mindset at this time, I have a greater understanding of where my morals lie, and together, it gives a huge insight to who I am as a person. This, in turn, teaches me were I should focus my desire to learn and improve.
Introspection is important. So important, in fact, I would suggest it is the separation between intelligent human beings and - to put it sensitively - those with no desire to learn. If sentience is judged by the ability to hold an understanding of our actions within our net of the world (as oppose to acting purely based on survival as non-human animals do), then surely up that scale is the ability to reflect upon yourself, and the reviewing of your own words, beliefs, actions to the greatest understanding.
One who is capable of introspection may often come across thoughts such as, 'You can't honestly believe that?' or 'You must know why what you've said is wrong...' because more people lack introspection than we would like to believe. To our own fault entirely, it becomes virtually impossible to imagine being without it.
Do I feel superior to people who are incapable of introspection? Well, I should do, these people make wrong turns and are the cause of most of the world's problems through a hive-mind of broken standards. Whereas people who are capable of introspection are great artists, and philosophers, and influential people... however, they are also psychopaths, and leaders who initiate wars and create the rest of the worlds problems to a potentially more threatening aspect.
So really, do I feel superior? Perhaps not. It all boils down to the one question that I haven't quite figured out: "Is it really better to be Socrates dissatisfied or a fool satisfied?" - It is wonderful, and often useful, to be capable of deeper thought, but with these thoughts comes noticing all the bad in the world, clouded dark thoughts of death and the inconsolable feeling of vulnerability and despite knowing the problems of the world, we are merely incapable in such a short life to truly do anything about them.
So, is it better to be happy, or clever? Right (within reason), or content? It's why I don't push my beliefs on others, because if they're happy, it doesn't matter if I disagree with them - I am so unimportant in comparison and without a guarantee I'm even correct. So, rather, I shall merely use introspection as a way to track the way I currently think the world works and then strive to improve myself, or at least satiate my desire for happiness, and, if you find what I say interesting or helpful, you're welcome along for the ride; we can be alone together.
...I try to be the person I'll be happy I was. I am not restricted by any standards, I am entirely free. I'm not lonely, but I'm thoroughly alone. All my feelings are entirely my own fault, I will not apologise for yours. If this is all there is, then it's the most important thing possible. Death motivates me to live long, happiness motivates me to act against expectations and introspection motivates me to be a good person.
I guess, as hard as I am to know, the core of my entire being is nut-shelled in that single paragraph. Has my introspection been successful? To me, yes... to you readers, well, that's up to you.
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