Winter Solstice and the future

Hello, friends!

Christmas has been around again (As it does fairly punctually every year, I might add, to it's credit) and just so as to not leave anyone out I simply wish everyone a happy solstice as it's something that all people can agree on (Because, y'know... facts over tradition.)

As a result, starts a kind of new chapter to my life I like to call 'The Owl Years'. As is my favour to not wearing real clothes for 80% of my life, I asked good old Father Christmas (also known personally and Mother and Father Sweet) for an Owl Kingurumi. Sazac Kingurumis are awesome because they are sickeningly comfortable, and well made, and also I'm a god damn owl.

So seeing as I will be wearing this most of the time through the last of my undergraduate days and the first of my real working days when I'm gonna be writing some of my main stuff in the aims of being published and what not, these are the Owl Years which will make or break me.

Christmas was decent and not having a computer gave me time to do some other things. Put some stuff in perspective for me, so to speak. My main view, now, is to get back to productivity and work harder and longer on my degree than I have done for anything I've ever done before. I'm reading and learning about writing quite passively at the moment, but it's all beneficial. So when I do start writing my own stuff again, I'm thinking it's going to be good, and I have quite a decent plan, too, that involves a lot of my work being free for everyone to view on the internet. So watch this space.

Thank you for reading my little update, and I wish you and yours a very happy 2014.

And as always, ciao for now!

Let's Play: Anna

Let's Play: Anna: Extended Edition on Kyle's Youtube Channel.

The link above is the link to my first ever gaming Youtube Video. It's an Italian puzzle games called Anna: Extended Edition and it was a really fun game. Though really long and boring when I couldn't work stuff out, so I've put in lots of jump cuts. It gets really interesting by around episode 3 and there will be a new video each day for a week. So just keep watching, please! Thanks.

Ciao for now!

Affirmations and Dissertations!

Hello!

   As of Thursday, I completed the first half of my third year essays, and simply only have three exams, four essays and a dissertation left to go. Instantly I began finishing my editing for the Anna Let's Play videos and I will be honest, I already understand the mistakes I made when filming and editing it, so I know where to improve in the future. For now though, I'm hoping you'll enjoy them as much as possible in all their dull glory when they come out in a few days time.
    As far as my dissertation goes, I'm finishing off the plan over Christmas where I have to think of loads of examples because about 70% of it comes down to me explaining examples. My lecturer, John, however seems to be interested in my essay and after telling me I'm exceptionally clever, admitted mine could be the one given to the external invigilator - he clearly has more faith in me than I do... No pressure then.



   With regards to subject matter, my dissertation is a moral language essay, playing Old Harry with the fact / value distinction so if you want to help with that, you can!
I need examples of the following things:

• A Simple Fact (a property of something that can be known empirically): E.g. 'Snow is white'. 'Water is wet'. 'Doors are solid'. Etc.
• An Evaluative Statement (Something that would motivate us to seek or avoid action): E.g. 'This is poison'. 'You might cut yourself'. 'Please help me!', Etc.
• A mixture of the two (something that is a fact and might motivate, particularly morally): E.g. 'Cruelty is bad'. 'Rudeness can offend'. 'Strawberries are sweet'. Etc.

If you have any examples you can think of and would like to help me out, throw them my way and I'll evaluate the extent I might be able to use them. Even if I don't use them, it'll be a massive help and greatly appreciated, so please do. Obviously, I do not want to use the ones I have already put as they have already been previously written in texts.

As always, thanks for reading, and ciao for now!

Hello!

Well, I'm still fully focused on these 3rd year essays I'm writing at the moment. But my head is filled with empty promises about projects that my brain station is working on. I'm thinking of doing some non-fiction philosophical works (On relationships, philosophy, education, etc., hopefully will be some good advice and profound words) that'll go up in both text and vlog form, I have a dark humour sketch ready in my head and my horror lets play will be on Youtube around Christmas time. I have a leatherbound notebook filled with writing works in progress and I'm unsure which I'll be releasing on here for free when they're done or keeping back for more monetary work.

So yeah, this is just a post saying hi! And thanks so much for stopping by. You are all special to me.

Ciao for now!

Happy Halloween

Hello people!

It's Halloween, and I love Halloween. So here's a thing. There's a new poem on the right hand side which I will also post down below.

I would also like to say that on my Youtube Channel soon I will be uploading my first ever Lets Play videos of a horror game called Anna: Extended Edition. It's kinda fun and it'd be great to hear what you'd think. I will also be focusing on getting a few other videos on the net soon as my top personal work priority as I have been meaning to for a while.

November is essay month for me, too. So wish me luck, and I'll see you on The Other Side.

The Other Side

An angel resides, with dark wings,

And dark eyes: A conductor

To summon the dead.

So the ghosts from above, the

Zoms from below and even the horsemen

That's missing a head.

They rise. They fall. The slaughter. They cull.

A Halloween night to remember.

Or so they all hope as the veil remains,

It's thinnest at the bong of November.

Simply a crack, or a knock or a smash,

Would break down the walls of the dead.

A chant from a witch, the malicious bitch,

Or a mistake that the blind man said.

So the angel remains, to struggle in chains,

The orchestra is mute from munching on brains.

The horsemen is sat, as he strokes a black cat;

Fluttering around is a vampire bat.

Banshees wail as the siren sings,

Demons hold back as they're pulling the strings

Of the goblins who dance, all playful and rude,

And at the back stands a scarecrow in solitude.

All the creatures, the horrors of night,

The other side they wait, to give us a fright.

In life, we're safe, from the desires of the dead...

Well, almost...

Just, don't look under your bed.


Happy Halloween. Ciao for now!

Top fives!

Just a simple post today to pique people's interest of the kind of stuff I like, I'm going to be posting my top fives of books, video games, movies and specific songs I could listen to forever. Bare in mind that this will be subject to change.

  In reverse order.

Video Games:
5. Pokemon X - Very new on the list, but because of the innovation of game play and the sheer amount of things to do, including similarities and links to the original game. It's my favourite Pokemon game already.
4. Earthbound (Mother 2) - Going back to the NES system, this is easily my favourite retro game, it's long, it's bizarre and it really plays on your emotions. There's a little bit of Earthbound in every modern RPG.
3. Valkyria Chronicles - An anime art style Japanese strategy game by Sega with the same music composer from FF XII. Killer storyline and really fun game play mechanics. Features one of the saddest moments in gaming history.
2. Shadow Of The Colossus - Simply beautiful. What this game lacks in depth of story it makes up for in artistic brilliance, an action/platformer based upon only killing 16 very epic colossus, a must play for anyone who calls themselves a gamer. Also includes one of the saddest moments in gaming.
1. Final Fantasy IX - Was there any doubt? I am a huge Final Fantasy fan and I didn't think it fair to use more than one game on the list, so I simply added my favourite. IX is the most polished game in the series, with a good system, good story and lovable characters (Yes, even Quina Quen.)

Movies:
5. 28 Days Later - British Horror done right. While not particularly terrifying, there is a lot of suspense and zombies, but just like real life... it's not just the undead that are monsters, amirite?
4. Pulp Fiction - Tarentino's best (though Django is awesome) film in my opinion, filled with classic lines and bizzare gold, wonderful characters and a non-chronological storyline. Must see film.
3. UP - The closest bit of proof we have that Pixar isn't for children. Just because it's not live action, doesn't mean you don't get into the emotional roller coaster and let it wear you out, with genuine comedy and at least 4 tear jerking moments.
2. Finding Nemo - Yes, I like Pixar. Finding Nemo is awash with fantastic characters, a giant journey and the only example I know of a film made up of a series of events that actually pulls it off successfully. Well done Pixar. Golden joy for this fantastic undersea adventure.
1. Scott Pilgrim Vs. the World - This film wont be for everyone, but if it is for you - you're able to watch it as many times as you like without getting bored. The layered film of comic and gaming references kicks up new things to notice every time, any almost every line is memorable and worthy of quote.

Books:
5. Geomancer - Ian Irvine - This is mainly on the list as it's possibly the first epic fantasy book I read and set the status for the kind of fantasy I like, with brilliantly written characters and unique creatures fixed with a unique form of 'magic' it technically counts as low fantasy, because most of the laws of physics still apply. Worth a read for fantasy fans.
4. Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy - Douglas Adams - I consider the trilogy of five to be this entire series because it's all one story. But the Douglas Adams classic is something I would recommend to everyone as one of the few books to actually make me laugh out loud, not occasionally, but very often. It's a sci-fi novel, and I don't even like Sci-Fi - just to prove how good this book is.
3. A Chrismas Carol - Charles Dickens - This stands as simply one of the greatest stories ever told by one of the greatest writers who ever lived. While Dickens has a lot of classic books, and some of which I do consider to be overrated, this is a simple Christmas story with a good moral message and a timeless concept.
2. Kingkiller Chronicles - Patrick Rothfuss - This, not yet finished series of three currently contains two novels featuring Kvothe the Kingkiller telling the story of his life and downfall over three days. Considering the general low fantasy theme of the book, there does sometimes become feelings of high fantasy concepts and I consider a must read for any fantasy fan, fantastically written with brilliantly molded together world.
1. Perfume: The Story Of A Murderer - Patrick Suskind - This, to me, is a perfect novel. A wonderful main character, a massive psychological twist with a different perspective view, and deeply honest about life. Set in the 1700s in France, this book is about a boy with a somewhat astounding sense of smell. Brilliantly written, and an under appreciated gem. I could not recomment this book more.

Songs:
5. White Wine In The Sun - Tim Minchin - Simply put. A comedian atheist from a constantly hot country through winter sings one of the most sentimental Christmas songs ever. Lovely.
4. You're Not Alone (Piano) - Nobuo Uematsu - Take an awesome song from a game that has so much meaning attached and turn it into a piano masterpiece. Well done Nobuo.
3. Oh Comely - Neutral Milk Hotel - I know now that most people will not understand this one at all, the lyrics seem meaningless and the song is long. But I never get bored of it; I love the sound and feel of the song. Don't just listen to music, try to appreciate it.
2. Are You In? - Incubus - Not the typical Incubus song, before people jump on the 'Oh, Incubus had to be there' train. Yes, I love Incubus as my favourite band - but also this is just an awesome funky feel good track. Strange feelings arise when you realise what it's about, however.
1. Gymnopedies (1, 2 and 3) - Erik Satie - These three songs technically count as three parts of the same song, so they're all number one. In my mind Erik Satie is a genius and these songs will never tire for me, absolutely brilliant.

Thanks for reading however much you read. Again, if you have any thoughts on these, or want more information, let me know. Start a discussion with me about what you really like in forms of media... anything. Just appreciate all the things there are!

Ciao for now!

Temporary Nature

     The thing about feelings, of joy or sorrow; something funny or embarrassing, is that when you're feeling them it becomes difficult to understand that the situation will ever feel any other way. When something is funny, so far as you believe, that thing will always be as funny. When you feel embarrassed, that moment will haunt you with the same intensity. However, it never continues in the same way. It decays over time and you forget. Everything is temporary.

     Surprisingly though, the notion of 'everything's temporary' - becoming more chaotic, if you will - should never sound as depressing or deep or upsetting as it appears on its surface. The fact of the matter is simply improvement, practice at life, moving you forever onward and becomming part of who you are.

     If anything bogs you down. Don't worry. It is temporary, and if you dwell for too long on the same passing feeling - as hard as it may be to let go - it is always of your own doing. So just stop and notice that nothing is slowing down for you, everything continues at exactly the same pace. You are a master of time. So do the things you're meant to do before the time is gone; and wait.

     ...Wait for the bad times to all go away; wait even more patiently for the good to arrive.

     You special little sausage you.

     Ciao for now!
     Kyle

Limbo (Fuck Heaven)

Best avoided if you have an unwavering optimism for the afterlife. Basically, I think the belief in the afterlife driven by fear is mainly irrational because it demeans any form of worth this life has:

Fuck Heaven, man!

It's not my idea of fun.

Full of ballroom dancing, and worshiping the sun.

They say there's only limited space;

And I hope there's no space left.

I want to go to Limbo, with philosophers,

Thinkers and the rest.

The language barrier is no issue, either,

I have an eternity to learn -

And I don't fancy going to Hell

Where, for infinity, you essentially burn.

Fuck Heaven, man!

Why take reason from life?

Fearing for the incomplete; ending with a knife.

I don't want eternity, to burn or sing with glee.

To chat with men is the best I'll get,

Before boredom throttles me.

Never to live to the full as a mortal,

What's the point in now?

So instead, with the rest,

I'll spend all of forever simply wondering:

'How?'

To infinity!

Fuck Heaven, man!

I've had Chronic Sleep Paralysis for over 6 years...

     I’ve noticed a lot of interest, all of a sudden, in the disorder Sleep Paralysis (SP) and figured I’d give my piece, as I seem to have had it more severely than most people. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not boasting about that - why would I? It’s a horrible thing… But I thought people might be interested, so everything I write here is based on experiences and research. Also, I’ve written a short story here attempting to mimic the experience.
     First of all - Don’t be frightened of it happening to you, out of nowhere. So, Sleep Paralysis is basically a disorder in which the part of your brain that controls consciousness decides to be less asleep than the part that controls everything else. In other words, your body is asleep - you are not. In most cases this only lasts a few seconds and the majority of people who get it the odd time don’t even notice it.

     I was about 15 when I first experienced it, I had just stayed up til about 4-5AM watching a horror film and when I went to sleep, I woke up, unable to move, for around 20 seconds-ish. After it happened about three or four times over a couple of weeks I decided to look it up and found out I had been suffering from quite a common thing called Sleep Paralysis. This continued to happen for years and years, the longest I’ve gone without it is about 4 months, but I’ve also had it for 3 days in a row before. It can happen lots of times in a night, each time you sleep - or it can last for many long minutes.

     I feel it is important to point out, here, that it is a normal thing to happen, your body always becomes paralysed when sleeping to stop you acting out your dreams. Everybody has this, you're just not supposed to wake up whilst that is happening, but it is marginally common so don't panic - it's okay.

     Sleep Paralysis happens either when you’re just dropping off to sleep, or just about to wake up and it’s very common for you to hallucinate. This is because the brain likes to try to make sense of the fact that you can’t move, so it tries to give you a reason by making stuff up and this accounts for almost every single sighting of demons and aliens and so on - it plays on your psyche. So, if you don’t believe in something, it’s unlikely to haunt you.

     There is no known cure for sleep paralysis, but it seems to be more severe if you sleep on your back, but only in the sense that it gives you difficulty breathing; I’ve never slept on my back and I still get it all the time. A common thing to break it or prevent it from happening (in my experience) is physical contact. If you have contact, preferably with another person, that gives you something to focus on, and if someone touches you while it’s happening, it’ll typically break it. It can also take the edge off if you have a soft toy to sleep with or something else physical other than your bed to focus on.

     SP is mainly caused by bad sleep hygiene (irregular hours, sleep deprivation, caffeine before bed, etc…), so sometimes you can be aware when it’s more likely to happen. But the best thing to do is just deal with it - rather than starve yourself of sleep which can only make it worse. I used to get up after an episode, chill for an hour and then go back to bed. When you know it might happen is scary, but you need to just carry on and let it pass.

     One of the worst things about SP is just the lack of refreshing sleep you get when you wake up. You don’t feel much better due to the sleep, but it’s still better than not sleeping. While it is not a nice thing to happen, and yes - it can be scary, it’s really nothing that should be used to scare monger people - you can learn to deal with it just fine. Don’t be scared of it happening to you if you've not experienced it before. If you don’t get it in your teenage years, you’re very likely to never have it at all.

     The worst personal experience I've ever had was when it accompanied 'Exploding Head Syndrome' alongside it, which is where you hallucinate the sound of a large crash or an explosion - I was certain someone was trying to break into my room and I could not move for what felt like 3-4 minutes. If you hear anything like this, try not to panic as much as I did. I was only scared because I was unaware that could happen.

     If anyone has any questions, please feel free to contact me at http://bringerofsweets.tumblr.com/. I hope this helps, is interesting, or is useful. Thanks.

Three Untitled Flash Poems

Hello! So I have a small update of some mini-things I've written over the past few days. I figured if I'm going to be writing every day it might be cool for me to do some of the smaller stuff alongside the bigger stuff.

So here are a few flash poems for you to gaze upon. Bare in mind, that this is only simple pieces of poetry, they don't reflect my personal life or anything like that - just so you know. Also, as you can see ahead, they're awfully short - as is the nature of flash poetry. Well, here you go:

Untitled #1

I watch you while you sleep.

I think that might be creepy?

But when I'm lying next to you,

How can I be sleepy?

Untitled #2

I never believed, that people truly grieved.
But then you died, and it made me decide:
They do.

Untitled #3

Look not to me,
If the world is against you.
Look not to me,
To cure your blight.
Look not to me,
To fix all your problems.
Look, just fuck off, alright?

Summer Update

Hello! I've done many a thing over the summer - but nothing to show for it. Such is the disappointment of being a professional! But here's a little post explaining things to you lovely people who actually care about me. (You're secretly my favourite people. Shh! Don't tell.)

• So I've entered a couple of writing competitions to win big monetary prizes. Of course I'm not the greatest writer in the world and the chances are probably not overly in my favour - but if you're not in it, you're guaranteed nothing. So it's always worth a pop.

• Also! I've finished my Lets Plays of the current main fourteen games in the Final Fantasy series. I've recorded the times for all of them, and I might put a Final Fantasy post at some point with them all on. I don't care about the hate it gets - Final Fantasy is my favourite game series - so shush!

• I did a video! You can watch it here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PNE6WN58ym8 - Or embedded below.
  It is a spoken word prose of my writing The Racecourse with thanks to Ben Hume for the bird song track. Watch it and please give feedback - I can't improve or have you view my wonderful things without it.

 

That's the important stuff. Other than that I will be doing small pieces of writing every day over August (hold me to that) so that means while I will be working on my longer pieces and short stories a little more often than I have been, I'll likely write little things that I can post on here too. So thanks for reading and I shall see you soon. Ciao for now!

Things To Do and Coming Soon

      So I might be starting work again in a couple of weeks which will dip into my free time - shame, I know, but I will be needing the money. But for now I just have priorities of people I need to meet up with and games I 'need' to play. However, every now and then, I set aside days where I just get a lot of work done. I might try to make these on a certain weekdays just to make it easier on myself - but I'll decide all that at a later date. However, you lovely lot will be benefiting from these odd days because there is plenty of things I'll be spending time on, such as:

• Video Recording
• Video Editing
• Script Writing
• Short Stories for my Portfolio
• Non-Fiction 'thoughts'
• 30 Minute Thoughts - (Random Days with Random Themes.)
• Writing Reviews
• Dissertation Reading

       Given that those last two, possible three will not be seen on my blog or anything - but they're still priorities that I need to dip into. But I'm guessing if on my random day of creativity I'll be spending a couple of hours on a few of these things - hopefully leading to work at a faster rate than durin' Uni work season.

       On the note of my dissertation, if enough people would be interested, I could post up little snippets about what I'm doing and researching for that (without posting any of my actual essay, because I could get done for plagiarism) - so do let me know. I haven't quite got a specific topic yet, but it's likely in Philosophy of Language.

       And last but not least, check out my writing to the right hand side of this page for the new(ish) story 'Letter To A Princess'. Please read, enjoy and give feedback! Thanks! :)

End Of The Second Year And An Addition To My Story Portfolio

Hello! I've had another little gap with no proper posts, but I won't apologise, because it's my life and I'll die if I want to. But the end of exams 'n stuff has happened and I've officially finished my second year of uni with what I consider to be pretty decent grades (which is nice, because it all counts at this stage) Most scattered Bs with the odd A and C thrown in for good measure. This was all nice and dandy - I've posted some of my better essays up which you can read below if you have any interest in them.

In other news I'm back home in Cornwall and have started on some more writing which scarcely gets done (but it does eventually), and some of my videos will start being worked upon - I have a lot of the ideas up in my head and I'm ready to give something a proper go.

And on this note here is the important part. My rework of an old short story. It's a low-fantasy comedy in medieval period about a not so high born guy who decided to write a letter to woo a princess. It sounds a bit cheese here, but that's half the point as a lot of it is overly satirical tongue in cheek kind of work. I very much hope you enjoy it.

You can read 'Letter' by clicking this link.

Political Philosophy Essay: State Welfare

Another 'A' grade essay based upon some original ideas of welfare for society and my opinions on what kind of system we should have. While I am less interested in this topic area, it may be of interest to others. Click the link below.

Are we obliged to help to provide some form of welfare for the less well-off members of society?

Thanks for reading.

What An 'A' Grade Philosophy Essay Looks Like

(I'd be lying if I said I wasn't proud of this essay. Read only if you think it is an interesting topic. It concerns the possibility of all external evidence being false.)

Compare and contrast Hume and Kant’s accounts of causation.

Press the title for the link to the essay.

TMT Conclusion.

Conclusion: I will do this again.

I wouldn't say my 30 minute thoughts was the hardest thing / challenge ever. But looking back at how inconsistent my moods are per day - I did struggle to do it on about days 4, 5 and 6. I'd say that was the most interesting thing about reading back to my posts, it does give away a lot of the mood I was in and that goes to show how real to my thoughts it was.

Because I was aiming to almost discuss my thoughts I was targeting my language towards the reader - which meant on days where I was feeling less than social, I found it hard to think of anything at all. I feel my spelling and grammar got better as time went on and my favourite post was day seven where I managed to just get onto an idea and run with it of the kind that seems fairly unique to me and mildly controversial in places.

In the future I'd like to try doing 30 minute thoughts with different themes, like I mention in one of the days that I'd like to actually just write a fiction tale like it and see how that works. But I'm likely to try to muster the ability to re-do posts like day 7 where I actually write something worth reading.

Overall I'm quite happy with the support I got, having an average of 25 views per post, making it five times more interesting than I'd initially expected and when the video comes out I expect more people will muster the motivation to watch that than read the blog.

I'm happy with how the experiment went and thank you very much for reading. I think it has improved my ability to write under certain conditions - because now I know I can. So I shall get on with some of that now.

My Experiment

So basically, you can keep up the progress with my experiment here: http://thirtyminutethoughts.blogspot.co.uk/

I explain it in the simplest sense at the top. The idea is to have an interesting Vlog by the end, that might even turn into a Vlog series depending on if I think I could do it more than once. But the whole idea is to spend 30 minutes each day for a week with no plan just constantly writing what comes into my head. This seems more dangerous than it has been so far, but it's kinda fun. If you really wanna read it I appreciate all of your thoughts - I'll be doing it every day and just because it takes 30 minutes to write it doesn't mean it'll take long to read at all. I dunno how many words I average in 30 minutes - but it's readable fairly quickly, and I'm a slow reader.

So I hope you can muster some enthusiasm about the idea, tell me if you think it's a bad idea or whatever - just say something and it's appreciated. All the support or attention I can get from it is welcomes.

As I say, the main aim is to kick start my YouTube with this little idea - giving me a script to write about. The blogs won't be very long, the script will be an insanely condensed version of the week's discussions. So subscribe now and I'll be posting the videos up - and hopefully they'll be interesting.

30 Minute Thoughts

          Hello. This is somewhat of an experiment and a challenge for me. Basically, for the next 30 minutes I am going to write constantly and try to not pause as much as possible. The idea here is that I have literally no template so I could write anything that pops into my head and I'm hoping this will remain quite raw - grammar included so you get the pure essence of my thoughts. Essentially this isn't going to be interesting to everyone, but I am aware there are a few who will be interested to 'read my thoughts' as this kind of is doing.
          There will be minimal editing as I go and afterwards, so do bare in mind that it will be significantly quicker than 30 minutes to read. Because I tend to write a bit slower when I'm being critical of my spelling and grammar and such anyway. I hope this becomes interesting for someone, but it is mainly for my own little interesting benefit. I've already been going for a few minutes and written nothing though, so I should probably think of shit to write.
          See at the moment I am quite into my horror, I started writing more of a horror story yesterday and the main idea in that is I actually wanna scare someone. I'm working on the premise that a true scare is something that lingers in the real world as well as just in reading, so delving into ideas I'm kinda scaring myself with it - but perhaps that's just my imagination. I have high hopes for it anyway. Of course I've told everyone of the main theme of the 10 short stories and all of the remaining ones are actually in progress, but because they're all happening at once, they'll all take quite a while to finish. I don't really put priorities, I go with whenever I feel like writing. I average about 400 words per day when I do work every day though. I have other little things like this that I do too, because I get these crazy ideas and just bloody well go for them.
          I'm well aware this isn't so interesting so far, but it's much harder than I first expected, I'm hoping that I'll chill the fuck out as I'm going - it becomes much more informal and perhaps have some genuine feelings in there at some point. Though I will admit there are some things I'm really trying not to think about because I kind of have to write it if I say it, and it would be cheating to censor it afterwards.
          I'm starting to regret doing this now because my thoughts are being pretty dumb and same-ish. Let's try to think of some kind of topic. I've finished my essays recently, wrote four thousand words on the causation of Hume and Kant and while that is a daunting thing at first is genuinely an interesting experience - not wanting to bore with the subject matter, but the actual fact is I enjoyed writing that. Most essays these days I really struggle through but after I was done with my procrastinating I finally got round to the research, because the essay was much longer than anything I've done before it was a new experience, so I kind of enjoyed that. It reminded me, kind of, the first essay I ever wrote where I think I must have been in year 9 or something because it was in History, I'm sure, and I never took history at GCSE, or if I did I don't remember. Anyway the essay was 1000 words and I remember telling my mum that I enjoyed writing it. I don't even know if I liked the subject matter but it was the first time in my life I was able to write (relatively) freely about a specific subject. I'm pretty sure it was crap, 'cause I hadn't learned to write essays back then - hell I still struggle with structure these days.
          What is kind of bizarre thought is when I actually think back to those type of lessons when even back then I assumed I was cleverer than people around me, but now I think that he's a bit of a thick twat on the scale of things. Still it's not that I really regret anything from the past people I've been, it's just I'd like to have had hindsight for my entire past. I don't think much would have changed but I just know I'd have had more fun. With things like knowing how little power teachers had, I would have been able to feel a little more free than I felt, I perhaps wouldn't have been so quiet in general or whatever. Then you have my three years of A level, they were strange times, every single year felt so different with my friendship groups shifting about and my priorities at the time.
          That's the thing though, when I actually look to the past all I really think of is education. Which is the damn good reason why I'm definitely stopping after university. I've been in education now for...what? I was 4 when I started so that makes it 17 ish years? That's a crazy amount of time! It wasn't until about 15-16 I actually got a life either. I barely left my own street until about 12-13 and then I played Warcraft for 2 very long years.
I say that as if it's a bad thing, but I still play a lot of games. Oh dear. I'm not entirely sure whether I'm able to put emote-icons in this little experiment of mine, it's hardly proper prose. But I did just giggle in my head at something or other. I've forgotten now. Anyway, I stopped playing WoW which took over from previous to that where I got home drank tea, ate biscuits and watched Cartoon Network for hours. So I don't know where the improvement happened. I sort of decided real friends were kind cool I guess. I'm fairly happy with the social life I've built, sometimes I feel I know too many people other times I feel quite alone. But I always have only a few friends that I can call close to me at any time. I'm in control, I think that's the important thing. Yeah... lets go with that.
I keep pressing the tab button to indent my paragraphs but forget that BlogSpot doesn't support that kind of indenting. I'm gonna have to add that after.
          So this turned into a nut-shell history of Kyle Sweet at once point there. I think I've only got a little time left though so I don't wanna stop on a random story. Umm... Right. Perhaps I'll be in a better frame of mind if I do this in the future. This kind of crap flows out of me when I panic write stuff. Either that or I'll have a burst of things to write about before coming to a stop because I don't know how to word a sentence for how effective it is and then I just lie down on my bed for a while. I sort of live too much in my head, which is just because all my senses kind of suck. Like my taste is pretty cool, but I'm sure others have better and you can't really live by taste. My smell is awful, I can't smell most things people people seem to - sight I wear glasses and even that isn't perfect and hearing is just dulled out by my internal dialogue. There isn't much of a reference for touch, but if there was I'm sure mine would come up pretty low on the scale. There are plenty more senses that are never talked about but they don't matter - point is that I live inside my own head pretty much all the time,
It's a bit like Squall from Final Fantasy 8, where a few times the character say about him just falling back into his thoughts too much and not saying everything aloud - I guess I related to that a little bit. 8 was my favourite game to replay in the FF series so far, I didn't realise how awesome it was. And I see that characters as their correct teenage ages instead of really old cause I was young the first time. But yeah I kind of got mildly upset when i ended it rather than in awe of how awesome it is because I just wanted to play more of it.
          There have been a few things that have gotten me a little upset or emotional recently, I think I must be maturing a little bit - or just come into a little strange time. Because I can't actually cry, but I almost can. My main things at the moment seem to be fear and emotions - which is a strange combination. I like stories that are connecting and emotional or just fucking dark. And I mean really dark, your dark is nothing compared to my dark, my friend! Har har! A little twisted I guess. Excuse me while I have a bit of drink.
          Laavly stuff. It's a habit of mine now to get £3 meal deals from Tescos. Orange Lucozade, flaming hot Monster Much and a chicken and bacon wrap. It's just delish. And on that little bizzare note my 30 minutes are up. Thank you to anyone who made it this far and I might do another of these - if I do I'll be sure to make it more interesting. Feel free to give feedback on whether or not I should and I'll see you in the next blog post. :) Ciao for now!

Poetry Breakdown!

Hey, how are ya? ...Really? That's great!

           Now, here I'd like to share with you all my little poetry corner posted on the right hand side of this page. There are currently 9 poems there - and I'm never sure when I'll add to this, so this will do for now.
           With my poetry, I'm not a massive fan of it and the majority of everything I write is satire - just to take the piss out of other kinds of poetry. This is because I just feel it's much lesser than other forms of literature. A debatable point, but I don't understand how a paragraph of metaphor could ever be more moving or difficult to write than an entire novel of themed brilliance.


           So with this in mind, here is a small summary of my poetry so that people can read what they're most interested in. Click on the title to go to the poem.

In no particular order:

• The Obligatory Sex Poem - This is by far my most popular poem. It's mainly because it is funny and has the word 'sex' in it. This poem gets a lot of views from people typing 'sex poem' in on Google. Still, it's just a satire poem based on in the writing world there is an abundance of sexual poetry. So this is my take. (It's a little mature, but generally written for humour rather than revealing about me. Avoid this if you're a relative of mine though, might be awkward. :P)
• Mr Todd - This poem is probably one of my better crafted poems. It's a fan-fiction poem of Sweeny Todd, which is my favourite musical. It is rhythmic and probably one of my only good non-satire poems. It's based on the original story and the modern versions - so read this if you like Sweeny Todd.
• Peter Killigrew. Pirate and Post Office Worker - This is a poem from my 'alter-ego' at work. It's an accented poem, so difficult for some to read, and again, a satire. Peter Killigrew is a real historical pirate from the 18th century and he also ran the Falmouth post office, which was the main post office for the entirety of England at the time. Not much is really known about him, but this is my characterised version.
• My Horse Wears Converse All-Stars - This is another satire poem that I wrote a long while back. It's mainly a quirky poem with not much concern for animal accuracy. It's provided just to provoke a smile. So give it a read. :)
• Creative Procrastination - The title of this poem is based on the reason why I wrote it. I was procrastinating of writing something worthwhile, so instead - this came out. It's very short and feels more like a 'feedline'-'punchline' kind of joke.
• Bane Poetry - This is a satire of an 'emo' type poem, ironically writing poetry about why I dislike writing poetry. I don't actually dislike writing poetry, but you might want to  read this if you want to see how easy it is to have a popular poem on a writers website, even if it is crap.
• Spilled - This is the first real poem I every wrote when I was young and teenagerish and thought I was all deep and confusing and stuff. It sort of stems a few ideas of philosophy I had back before I knew philosophy is a thing. I'm a little embarrassed about this now, but I guess it's not bad for a 15 year old.
• Nobody is Lonely... Everyone is Alone - This poem is a satire about inside languages and friendship, highlighting annoying people and that sometimes you just need time to yourself. It's ideal as a poem if you're an introvert. And it's nicely structured... :P
• Ode To My Mum - This last one is a little poem I wrote for my mum for Mother's Day. It's just a little amusing, quirky and sweet generally. I avoided it being overly soppy, so I hid it under humour and this was the result. Probably one of the better ones to read as a relative of mine. :P

Thank you ever so much for reading, I hope you enjoyed at least two of these. If you liked one, don't hesitate to share it with someone; post it yourself somewhere if you like - so long as you credit me for it. :) Leave a comment on any of the poems if you like - spread the love or hate. I don't mind... :D

Ciao for now!

Organised My Blog!

Hello, peeps. 

Fo' shizzle 'n ting!

...Anyway.
So I've spent a rather long time organising this blog and my social network linkages thingy-ma-gig. So I'll give you a run down of the changes and ideas that went into it and why. Although it's not so different superficially - it's much easier for me and it's a little easier to navigate.

The main reason I've done and changed all this is partly because it was overdue, but also partly to keep myself organised. It's been over a year since I've started bloging and my posts seem to have averaged out at 2 posts a month. I'm hoping to raise this, but I am lazy - so we'll see. The main idea is that I've learned a bit over the past year on how to present myself a little better so I felt I need to kick up a little more professionalism in my internet presence. So here's the breakdown:

Social Networks:

First of all, I've been checking Tumblr everyday, so I'll be doing some posts on that and keeping up to date with it. You can follow my tumblr here. My Tumblr is also linked with my Facebook account and my Twitter account - and this blog is linked with my Youtube account (given that there is nothing of mine on there...yet.) This means that I can easily share data and keep on top of it all. This is far more useful for me than it is you. But don't forget to add me on everything... :D

Blog Update:

Here on this blog is where it counts. The major difference I've made it so make my writing more easily accessible and make this page easier to understand. To the left I've got easy to follow contact links for any questions or things you wanna share. There is also a mini-bio of me (of course) and I've changed my picture to my favourite current representation of my at the top of the page (Go me!)

I'm also considering changing the color scheme for titles from green to orange. While I prefer the colour green, I'm feeling that orange makes a better contract with the darkness on the page. You'll know if I change this before I do, whilst writing this (I'll decide later.)

With my page being a little less of a mess, I'm hoping people might find it in their heart to share my page more. Oh, and by the way - it's now easier to comment below certain blog posts. - All you have to do is click on title to make sure you're on the individual post and at the bottom there is a handy comments box.

 My Writing: 

Yes, this is the key part that involves you. I'm going to be putting up two posts in the next few days individualising my poetry and my short stories, but here is a rundown of the major changes I've made:

I've sorted out a neat list to the right hand side of my page categorising my 'Top Stories' which will eventually be my top ten best short stories as made for an 'online portfolio', and I've got my poetry underneath. Underneath this again I have other little stories or non-fiction works that are worthy of mention but I don't consider at all in my best.

I've posted up all my work on a separate blog that merely looks like an extension of this blog. This is because it's easier to just have a pure work on a page when you click the link to read it rather than when I post stuff in this main blog that comes with bonus notes that are not all relevant to the story.

My aim is to get to ten pieces of 'best' short story work when I go back to make sure they're all at the same standard. So please let me know if there are any mistakes or things you think could be changed. All comments are very useful. There are currently four works in progress being written.

And that is pretty much the jist of it.  Thank you ever so much for reading, and I hope you enjoy my writing. The next few blog posts will summarise what I've got so far. Thanks for reading and ciao for now!

'Your beard is good...'

     So recently, on Facebook I posted a few self-indulgent photographs of my face. And I shall follow them up here with an explanation of this activity. Basically, it's the longest my beard has been, ever. So because I needed to trim it off, I figured I'd have a little fun with it. My only regret is that my hair isn't longer - so as to make the look more complete on some of the pictures.

     I should also explain that the reason I cut it is because of the length of my hair not weighing of equivalent length and as I posted on facebook: "When you look in the mirror and the words 'Marxist revolutionist' spring to mind... Probably a good idea to trim the old beard."

     So with that in mind, before my current stubble look, I took a few pictures that can be seen below.

Here we have me looking like a fugitive. I went with a natural messy hair look with the 'M' front and the blurry pic with the unkempt beard. Perhaps I'm a captive, perhaps I'm in hiding, who knows?

This is the dictator look. With the large dark glasses (3D Cinema ones, obvs!) - wasn't quite sure what to do with my hair so I flattened it as much as possible to suggest I don't give a shit. And a serious expression. :P

Here we have the 'Viva La Revolution' photo, just stemming on the idea of revolutionist. I think it looks mildly amusing.

Finally here we have a doctored version of the above to make it more of a silhouette image, I call it the 'Che Guevara' - although admittedly I'm not quite left wing. And this is where I regret my hair not being longer to complete the look.

 And there you go. This is what happens when you back-comb your beard and mess around with a camera. Mildly unexciting, I know - but I haven't had a decent picture of myself for such a long time. :P

Thanks for reading.

Simple Poetry

Sorry for the lack of posts (I swear I say this every other post) - there's plenty I have to write about when I can be bothered to get it done. But just to bridge the gap, here's a poem I wrote for my Creative Writing module. I can't say I like it overly much, it's a bit dull and Dr. Suess-esk.

A Brief Encounter.

I remember that woman I met on the street.

A brief brushing of lives, at best.

Every time, now I think of that girl, I smile at her piquing my interest.

There were no feelings, of lust or desire, or pangs of hatred, or woe.

Though I remember distaste; being awfully saddened

When she told me she had to go.

Our conversation clicked us, with words that would vex,

The more simple minded around.

An inside language, not complex, keeping us grounded and sound.

I saw, in this girl, a like-minded friend – someone with similar intrigues.

And then when she left, she parted with steps;

Each felt like a million leagues.

Fate played a hand, extravagant and grand, nobody know what's next.

The question 'what if?', in a situation like this,

Would leave even the wisest perplexed.

I was never to meet this lady again, I admit it was a real shame.

But I know she exists, and I'm happy at the thought;

I can't say her absence brings pain.

Thanks.

There's no such thing.

Here, on Valentines Day, I'd like to propose a few points to the world. Some turns of phrase that are used at times like this, about love and romance, that are just plain silly. So before we start I would like to explain that, yes, I am a pessimist about love. Yes, I am currently single. And no, I am not anti-romance, I'm pro-romance. This has nothing to do with those things - people can enjoy themselves anyway they desire. I believe love an romance is quite a special thing and should be celebrated as special when you're part of it. However, that doesn't mean you have to be pathetic and illogical about it. So here is a couple of ridicules phrases that should not exist:

True Love

True love? ... What, like that non-true love. Like the genuine love you feel isn't true? Like there are only two forms of love, the love that you feel for one person is true love and the love you can feel for anyone else is just normal love?

Not only does this suggest the utter crap like there is only one person for everyone, it is also the suggestion that - statistically - the vast majority of people's love isn't true. They just think it is. What sort of twisted world is this creating? Everyone's secretly just infatuated with each other...

A friend pointed out to me that technically you can have false love. Love that is only pretend, or that you've lied about it enough to the point you believe it yourself. But this, in a sense, isn't really false love as much as just not love. It's something else. However, if something is genuinely love, then it is true that it is love. So the love is true.

Of course, some love is stronger than others, love changed over time and the love you can feel for different people can feel different - certainly, but they are all truly loving someone in some way.

Am I making sense? Here's a logical breakdown.
-P is love
-Q is true love

1. If P exists, then it is also Q                                                    Alternately:
2. P                                                                                         P if and only if Q
3. Therefore Q                                                                              (P ≡ Q)
   
   Got it? All love is true. Okay, lets move on.

Friendzone

Okay. Here's the thing. There is no such thing as a friendzone. A friend zone is the suggestion that a male and a female [change genders according to sexuality] cannot only be friends, so the one that wants to be more is actively 'zoned' by the other to keep them at bay.

This is utter shit. Firstly, the fact that this is such a common claim is that there are so many people who have friends they would like to have something more with. This is just a sad case of events - however, the further suggestion is to assume that one can't make more of a move or talk about the idea of them being together because one or the other claims that the other is their friend. Okay. This isn't an issue, you are friends. That's exactly what you currently are. You cannot read into this 'I see you as a friend currently, so nothing more will ever happen' - it's just not true. Just try for it. You can't assume that you currently being friends means they are going out of their way to keep you as a friend.

If anything, a 'friendzone' is a made up excuse for someone to cower away from asking someone out, or talking about the possibility of a relationship. If you want it, all you have to do is ask. You'll be helped by the clarity and closure of your feelings anyway - it wont ruin anything to try for it, get turned down and fall back into being comfortable as friends afterwards - you won't like only this person forever.

It's a shame, also, because people see a guy and a girl out together as friends, and so many people just to the assumption that (usually the guy) someone is being friendzoned. Why? What's wrong with inter-gender relationships? Are we so still in the school playground that we have to gossip about people who venture out of their respective gender groups?

Sure, relationships and love can come naturally and passively waiting for it is fine - but that doesn't mean you don't have to do a bit of work for it. If you naturally like someone but are scared to ask them, try thinking outside of your own head for a second and perhaps they think the same? It's not gonna hurt to try is all.

As a result, it's all just a made up word revolving around people's lackluster approach at life. It's not a thing - so just handle it better. Success or fail, you're no longer friend zoned by your own feelings.

Last but not least...

 Banter

I know this isn't technically about lover-relationships, but it is a social interaction that I have a bit of a bugbear about anyway.

Dictionary Definition: The playful and friendly exchange of teasing remarks.

And this is it. That is what it is and nothing else. Taking the piss, is not banter. Bullying is not banter. Making jokes about people who are not there is not banter. You can't cover up every single conversational point as 'banter' so please stop using the word. I shouldn't even have to explain this. It's a crap slang word that people just don't use correctly, like 'ream' or 'literally' as terms of exaggeration. Stop it.

New Story Ideas

Hi, so I've been writing some new story ideas and they've come out more alluring and longer than I first anticipated. I'm trying to stick with fantasy because I feel there is less issues caused by real world logistics in some of the story ideas I had. So here's a small sample and explanations of what I'm currently writing:

• 'Like Clockwork' (working title - furthest in process) - Petrok, a solitary man from an abandoned town, builds his own AI lifeform - a clockwork girl. The girl (currently called Mellyn) wakes one day and though is incredibly innocent to the world, finds that others don't react to her quite how her 'father' does to her. Mellyn's problems only duplicate upon trying to return to the place that she was born.

• 'Don't tell your mother..' (working title - idea set and writing begun) - This one is a comedy and it's a little bit off the wall. It is about a young Preying  Mantis boy who, after realising he is gay, goes to an insect GLBT club, only to bump into his own step-father. *Dun-Dun-Duuuuuun!*

• 'Thistle' (Still on the drawing board as to the plot) - A captive girl named Thistle, attempts to return to her tribe after eventually escaping. Her homeland is snow-filled and baron, so journeys on your own are difficult, especially when they go on for a lot longer than expected. Upon returning to her home tribe, she finds no trace of her family and only one familiar face still exists.

These are all subject to change, and there is no telling how long it'll take to finish any individual story. At least two of them are rather long, which takes much much time to work through. I'm working slowly inbetween university work as well, so I'll let you know how the progress goes.

I very much appreciate any feedback and thoughts on which of these you think sounds more interesting and so on and so forth - So all comments more than welcome. Thanks for reading.

My First Attempt At Non-Fiction

The Racecourse

      Do you walk dogs, or do dogs walk you? That's what I was thinking. Swaying on those swings – rusted and immaturely coloured with reds and blues. Those creaky chains could resist the wind, but not my weight. I wasn't swaying forwards and backwards, it was more of a side-to-side; my mind was peaceful – simple. Childishly noticing the careless smoke from my mouth, I pretended to be a dragon in the way that had always been funny since I was little.

     It was a heavily coated dog, walking a heavily coated man. That's what it was. The dog had a jovial bounce to his step – somewhat of a skipping child on four legs. He was as fluffy and grey as the looming clouds. A dark night threatened. The man tailed a rigid trail behind; he definitely wasn't in control. I stared out to the mass of open space peering closely at the hiding spots: trees that could hold dens or hills to roll down. The Racecourse was so innocent and vague; there were fewer things more sinister.

     Guess who I felt sorry for most, though? Those information signs that act so self-importantly. They sit and tell you things, constantly - sat gleaming their information to deaf ears and dull minds. Who was really going to stop and hear them out in that kind of cold? Must be hard to have a job. Or at least a boring one where you slave away the majority of your waking life to a cause that isn't your own. Those kinds of people probably cross through places like the The Racecourse every day in an attempt at being punctual. I doubt they even stop to look at the monotonous, striving, aimless field.

      The signs should probably quit their jobs. They won't, though, because they work to live their ever extending life. You have to admire their persistence, calling out to happily married couples romancing hand in hand – clearly enjoying the rest of their lives so much more than the signs. I wondered how old they were – when does a sign retire, anyway?

      So many leaves on the ground from the time of year. Some of the leaves had a youthful shade of white spread over them as if trying to dye their 'greying' hair. Hiding from their own mortality. Brown must be a dull colour for a leaf; morbid and dry. Sometimes the wind would carry them speedily along as if chasing a hearse: 'Take me with you' they'd whisper in the despair of the night. At first they lose their tree, and then the death of darkness has to plague them, destroying their fruitless attempts at being innocent and pure. When the scythe strikes, The Racecourse wins.

      I wonder if the dog made his way home? I bet the man got enough exercise. I made my own way home before dark; it's not quite my time, yet.

Defining Philosophy

     When I tell people I do Philosophy there are a few key things they tend to think:

a) "Wow, he must be really clever"
b) "Oh... But that's useless and shit, he'll never get a job"
c) "Interesting... what is Philosophy?"

     The first, is a little annoying. This is generally people who didn't go to university or took college lessons that they didn't think they used their brain for much. The main reason it is annoying is that I do make an attempt at speaking to everyone at the same level, which becomes more difficult when they immediately assume you're cleverer than them - when it's possibly not that true, they probably have specialist subjects just as I do.

Mild Rant Ahead

     The second is a little bit of an irritation of mine. The reason should be obvious enough. These people are generally scientists and other 'intelligentsia' who seem to be ignorant, which is, in fact, much more irritating than someone who is a genuine moron. This doesn't happen very much, but I know perfectly well there is a large portion of the population who both think Philosophy is pointless; doesn't apply to the real world, easy, etc. and they don't have the mildest clue what Philosophy is. These people usually find out that I do this with a condescending smile and then ask me what I want to do as a job. I'd just like to point out that most employers tend to think option a) on the list above, as Philosophy shows you have an ability to quickly learn things and understand them well. It is more than possible to get a job from it - it just doesn't lead into a competitive specific job title. And with more and more people with degrees, I am just as likely to get a job as these people (...it just so happens that I don't want a proper job.) Also, at least I'm enjoying my degree.

Rant Over

      The last group is probably the most common one that I come across, and they tend to think anything of Philosophy and of me, but they're just not entirely sure what Philosophy involves. That is far enough; it's not exactly easy to explain. I would rather have this answer than any other. The thing here is, that many philosophers or Philosophy students do not like this question. The reason being that there is no real answer to it.

     All of these three do seem to have the one thing in common here, though. None of them have the correct idea about Philosophy at all. Group B tend to have an idea that it is some people trying to figure things out that science already knows. Groups A and C just plain don't understand what it is.

Before I continue, I would like to point out, that crappy quotes that are inane, obvious, cheesy, etc... (the type you get posted over an Instagram photo so pretend nerds can try to look clever) - these are what people call 'philosophies', but are not actual Philosophy. Philosophy is a subject, much like any sport or art, that can be done well or not so wel there are levels of ability to it.

When I am asked what Philosophy is I give them the definition of the word, as I feel most accurately describes the subject:

Philosophy roughly translates from Greek to 'The Love of Knowledge'

     Think about it for a second. Firstly, knowledge is knowledge - it works on a system where we like to know the truth and what is right. This does include keeping up to date with worldly knowledge and science.
     It seems, to me, that a wise man is someone who understands that the world is not the totality of things, but: "The world is the totality of facts." (Wittgenstein) - What this essentially means is that the world as we see, full of objects and matter doesn't give a full perspective of what the world actually is - what does give an accurate representation is facts. All facts of things must be true, and therefore make up the world. This means that we can know things not only of what we see and hear, but through logical truths too. Philosophy is purely to hunt down these truths and facts.

     More so than the quest for knowledge given by Philosophy, it is used to aid everyday lives. It also teaches most schools of thought that allow you to be an individual thinking person outside of the 'we are a bag of chemical automatons who need sex purely to procreate.'
     Philosophy aims to give people understanding of their own life and the world around them to make them go about things better. It was the first ever real subject for education and is the root of nearly every subject that exists today. Maths counts as more related to philosophy than anything else, even. It is still used widely today in our politics and legal systems. Society and personal morality. Making sense of perceptions and desires. Making sense of our fear and knowledge of death. A lot of the theoretical foundations and paradigms of science are based upon ideas put forward by Philosophy. Philosophy gave us and continues to give us education and a system of education. Knowledge and appreciation of art and beauty and all of the things you enjoy is made possible because of Philosophy.

     So please never let it be said that Philosophy is dead.
Philosophy is important and plays the role in education that everyone takes for granted. Philosophy is a 'jack of all trades' subject that allows me to understand any subject to a certain level relatively easily. And just because it is over three-thousand years old - it by no means makes it out of date; Philosophy cannot die so long as we have our minds.

And so I bid you, forever more, to be aware of what Philosophy is. A very worthwhile subject.

If you have any questions or comments, please leave them below or check out my contact information on the left hand tab. Thank you greatly for your time, and I shall see you again soon. Byeeee!

Things!

 Figured I might tease you with different colours for you visual beauties, you!

     I am well aware that few people are interested in the posts about my life as they slowly trickle in, but they are read by a few and this is mainly for me - somewhat of a diary of the key events. While I'd love to be able to write every single day about things and thoughts - I don't seem to have the motivation for that.

     I suppose if I did try, I'd end up writing them in advance and not write more when they caught up or something, so this is where the problem lies with writing these updates so often. I am quite happy about the amount of feedback I do get from friends and such that do flick through my writings and posts. Most people are afraid to comment on them rather than speak to me personally, however, purely because nobody else comments on them... How ironic.

*****

     Still... I'm back to university after a small break from Christmas and I am likely here until summer now. The work has got much harder and more demanding and somehow I'm more enthused to actually get it done - a boost of desire to make sure I pass. This does mean working and writing every day, however - which means less time for leisure writing.

     That being said, for the exercises in my creative writing module, I will be able to post them up here as I go - therefore creating a bit of entertainment in my busy wake. So that should be exciting. I could also post my philosophy essays, but I'd rather not send you all to sleep just yet with a subject you will not be interest in - I do need to keep some level of standard.

    And on this similar note about people's lack of interest in philosophy - I've been mildly bugged at people's ignorance and distaste towards a subject that they don't understand, recently, as well. So I fully intend to post more about philosophical matters that should be of interest to people - purely in the hope of making people aware of what philosophy actually is more than anything else - it's not lecturing or anything dull that I'll be doing, so don't worry your sweet little cottons about it!

    My hopes and mentions of writing scripts and sketches for YouTube and other such projects are still in the pipeline, but purely post-boned until I have time for them. These kinds of things only can be done in genuine free time, not just the time in between writing essays for university. Too much writing makes it hard to keep up.

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    On slightly nicer notes, my Christmas was very nice. I now how a Kindle, meaning I have the entire history of literature on my bookshelf to work my way through. That should take some more time. I've actually been indulging in some sci-fi as well... which is aberrant for me. It is, however, only Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy. Which is funny, witty, well thought out and very unique. I do like it, and it's probably as far into sci-fi as I will dip. (sorry to disappoint a few friends of mine)

    Last but not least, I have my 21st birthday coming up soon on the 18th of January. I am having a handcuffs party in which everyone picks a partner and is cuffed to them for the night. It's my own idea and I'm very much wondering how it is going to be panned out - not to mention the connotations that come with it.

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So, more updates to come and hopefully more often and close between, too. And eventually some real entertainment. (but there are still probably old pieces you haven't read. Look on the list to the top right hand side of the page...*hint-hint*) Because that's the only thing that makes me mildly interesting. Apologies of sincerity go your way for delays. Ta ta for now! Ciao!